Struggling

On January 4, 2014January 4, 2014 By JillIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

I have tried – every morning for the past three mornings to be positive, full of life, and calm all the while enjoying all of these moments playing with the girls and trying to not go absolutely insane! This is so mind numbing for me at times… How do some Moms go from activity after activity and love this!!Are they boring dullards that don’t think very much? I’ve often wished that I could be one of those women that just wake up, do what they have to do, read a magazine, put up their feet and call it a day….wouldn’t that be amazing- to not think – to not wish for more?

But I NEVER stop thinking and My mind constantly churns and spins… What are we going to do?! How am I going to get through this day? What is a thrilling activity for toddlers? Ahhhh,,, I need to get out! I need to make a plan! I need a girls night! I need to go shopping ! I need to get out of these yoga pants!

I try to do something, anything, write out a bill, check something on the internet, anything that doesn’t involve the girls and they immediately come running ! Grabbing my phone, grabbing the pen …I can’t even go to the bathroom without “mooooomy’ Mommy, ” even now as I am trying to write this I am standing with the iPad up high trying to write this… Is it really that important that I write this – not really- but at least it’s a break albeit not the most relaxing one as my girls are,now throwing plastic fruits at me..

Help! I love them … This is temporary , right?

Putting blinders on

On January 3, 2014January 3, 2014 By JillIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

When I woke up this morning I has a sense of dread….I had to get the girls up and get older to preschool. Since we had been off for what has seemed like weeks we were all off schedule and the girls had been sleeping late..I thought about just keeping her home and staying in my lazy, avoid the world cocoon, but I didn’t . I rallied and with lots of “hurry up, stop dilly dallying” we got out the door. I went to the grocery store where little stuffed her face with munchkins while I quickly navigating the aisles only putting in “meal type of foods” ..
Trying to stick to meals and limit the snacks. The snacks being my shameful go to idea of what to do when we’re bored… Oh let’s have a snack! Shame on me …. These girls need attention from their, ahem… Role model… Wow! It’s really sinking in now that the older is 4… She looks at me, wants to be me, needs me, copies me, and I am her world.

HER WORLD!!!!! Ladies! This is a huge deal. And especially Moms of daughters… Body image, assertiveness, strength, confidence… You know – everything the books write about and we see destroyed as girls become adolescents… A lot of this rests in our hands!

Oh I just got on a tangent there… After the grocery store we went to Kohls and we got what we needed and I had a little time to kill so little and I were looking at picture books and I,just decided to put her down on the floor and read her books. Just put the blinders on and ignored anyone who would think this a bit odd , and had a nice little break.

I am going to do more things and not worry what the world thinks…. Starting the adventure of more living, less worrying.

Happy New Years

On January 2, 2014January 2, 2014 By JillIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

Well, here it is. The first day of the new year… A fresh start, a blank slate, and boy am I excited! I changed the name of my blog today … It used to be laundry love … Um yea , what the heck was I thinking! I abhor laundry- it’s the most mind numbing task that NEVER ENDS….EVER! It’s like a battle where I always lose or end up flat out frustrated! I manage to put the clothes in, maybe remember to put them in the dryer…but when it comes to the actual folding ugh, it takes days to get this done…mostly because the girls keep throwing themselves in the pile of clothes…. And then when the miracle of actually folding the laundry occurs, the piles sit there forever. I mean the entire task of putting all those little pink and purple tiny socks in pairs used all the “boring chore” reserves of my brain and I couldn’t even fathom the idea of going from room to room opening up drawer after drawer and putting away those freshly laundered items!
So there you have it. I don’t like laundry and sometime I don’t love being a stay at home Mom but I love my girls more than anything and I am going to embrace this time with them…even though my four year old cried passionately this evening about how she didn’t want to eat the meatball for dinner ! And the fact that I picked up toys off the ground all day long only to walk to a different room to see that my two year old decided to decorate the walls with stickers and crayons… Yea this is my fabulous life but I will continue to make it my mission to raise confident, happy, smart, and strong girls.