Day two – Thirty day challenge Make it, Do it, Love it- Positive thoughts

It definitely was a long day. Arianna was back to meltdowns and strange behavior like calling from upstairs saying she

couldn’t walk

and screaming for me while hysterical crying…the morning music class was not fun! She refused to

shake her eggs,

roll the plastic balls,

, and then had a terrible tantrum when she didn’t want to put the balls back. The teacher tried to appease her by bringing out the instruments and handed her the drums, her favorite choice every week, and by every week, I mean if she doesn’t get the drums, all hell breaks loose!

After she sort of calmed down, it was time to put the instruments away and she didn’t get to push the container back and she freaked out! It was only 11am and I was weary!


It was very exciting today at Walgreens! The salesclerk gave us balloons and lollipops! Awesome! This really helped me get through the aisles without the grabbies!


Just wanted to share that I only ate half of the bag of mini peanut butter cups! Yay me! And to tell you that I have a problem with self control would be a major understatement! Even after the torturous outbursts all day, I did not say “the hell with it” and raid the pantry like someone who has smoked some serious stuff ( I, uh….have just seen that sort of thing on T.V… Wouldn’t know a thing about that! )
I didn’t want to throw all my positive energy down the tubes on day two!



Ending the night feeling strong and in control!

Sometimes I want to scream


This has been the absolute longest day! I haven’t left the house in two days and home with my two year old and four year old girls… I want to be honest here…I started a blog two days ago with the intention of writing about fabulous things but I have been on edge since I started this grandiose and ridiculous idea…

I think I just need to come to grips with the fact that I am an anxious, ruminating, stir crazy momma who struggles with non stop snacking when I am loosing it!


One half hour ago I was shoving cookies in my mouth because I am stuffing feelings perhaps… oh I’ve read all the books about emotional eating and apparently I’m self medicating! Yes, friends I am eating cookies because I thought that I could fly through these days being creative, fun, and stimulating to my children’s minds BUT!!! I got to about noon today and my mood just plummeted- these days are long and I just feel empty except for the millions of snacks I consumed today! ugh –

Quick background on me – I am 37, former teacher among other various professions – I worked with my first daughter and stayed home when I had the second so I’ve been home about two years now and let me tell you – it is tough!

I love my girls and they are so beautiful but I get so bored at home. I do play dates, baking, crafts, dance, gymnastics, story time, mall trips, icecream trips- you know the drill stay at home moms! I try to keep busy but sometimes I just want to scream!

the boredom, the monotonous day to day , the impossible shopping trips, the tantrums, the food issues…I feel so trapped sometimes.