If I was a self help book I’d throw myself over a cliff

“Moving towards balance…letting go, quitting sweets, quitting baking, getting over people pleasing, going to start taking care of myself, exercising, accepting my body, slowing down…blah, blah, blah….I truly feel like if I was a self help book, I would throw myself over the cliff.

None of this crappolla is important, really. Its utter crap, it’s not positive, funny, or real.

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It’s like I am addicted to proclamations. It’s probably America – we’re obsessed with life change, makeovers, transformations, and success stories…pick up any magazine and it always features happy people touting their latest life change or decision to live a different life…I’m not completely knocking these inspirational type of stories…it’s just the more we hear about Jane quitting her job, starting the business of her dreams, losing 20 pounds, giving up gluten, and practicing yoga…you start to kind of think – well, maybe Jane has all the answers. She just looks so freakin happy…

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This sort of thing has always sucked me in… Any kind of a change, seemed dramatic, exciting, challenging, and the answer to me being stuck in a rut.

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The title says secrets to being happy from the Inside out…that sounds like you just have to read it, right?

When something doesn’t feel right, or I am feeling something I don’t want to be feeling, like frustration, unhappiness, disillusionment, sadness, or just boredom, I make some major proclamation. Instead of just owning the feeling. I think that’s what addicts do, right?

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This one promises me to get a life that doesn’t suck! Woo hoo

For example, the baking… I baked a lot for the past two years. And then, just recently, I simply didn’t feel like it. I didn’t really have a clear explanation. I just had no desire to get out the bowls and the flour. When I think about this rationally, it was probably just me being tired and busy with the regular hectic life of a mom of little ones.

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Not a lick of make up- dirty hair- and chipped nail polish – that’s pretty brave of me to show this gross pic that Gia snapped of me.

How about I just write/ speak about my true feelings… Like “Hey everyone, I am in a funk. I’m tired, I’m probably going to bring you some munchkins today, because the thought of baking is truly exhausting… But maybe I’ll feel like whipping up some blondies in a couple of weeks, or maybe not! ”

Or ” I am just not feeling my cutest, can we just hang out in our sweats and drink wine and eat pizza? ”

I officially quit proclamations.

Life is full of enough interesting things to read about/talk about right? Like the fact that Arianna pooped on the bathroom floor at the library yesterday and tried to pick it up.

Eeewwww! I don’t know how this happened. She has been using the potty regularly now for a while.

But that’s life. And I think we would all rather read about that, wouldn’t we?


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Beginning the journey to find balance

I’ve been feeling kind of lost. Not knowing what direction to take this blog. I know it’s just a blog, something I started because I thought it would help me be a better mom, person, keeper of the house…like if I was putting it out there for the world to see, it would somehow inspire me to “do more.”

The problem is that it did inspire me to do more. I tried cute crafts, tons of baking, and various ideas and it was nice and it looks like I do a lot. I worked hard with this blog. People tell me they like reading my posts.

I suppose I’ve sharpened my writing skills a bit, and I learned how to do things on the computer, and I’ve certainly toughened up my skin by just putting it all out there and not caring what people think, BUT as of today, I am still suffering with …

I’m not quite sure how to put it – just a feeling that I’m not living peacefully, not balanced, and doing what really matters.

Today, I decide to find more peace and put my needs and my family’s needs above all else.

I thought I was just baking too much but I think it’s way deeper than that. I feel as if I’ve been busying myself with “lots of stuff,” joining Pinterest, participating in many kid’s activities, doing the theme stuff, etc…but it seems like it’s just been stuff…fluff.

I plan on exercising for me, baking quality over quantity, doing less activities, slowing down, saying no, not planning as much, and the MOST IMPORTANT THING, tuning out the world and playing with my girls. We will still do crafts, I have girls – they love crafts – but they won’t be just for a cute post.

I will be having a new blogger soon to join this blog and she strives for balance every day. I can’t wait for her to begin.

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let’s get real

THEMES ARE OVER!!! I’m exhausted, spending too much money, time, with baking and crafts!

I don’t know how moms do it but no more ! This ain’t my thing.

People say I’m creative- but this isn’t for me!

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Stressed and tired!

I know what ya’ all are thinking – “But they’re so cute!”

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I mean, even I want to backslide on my no more baking/cute themes but
I am seriously done!

I have gotten more site traffic from crafts but OH WELL.

I know for those of you not in the blogging world, you’re like who the hell cares.

Yes, I am a good baker and yes, I am creative BUT at what cost?

The girls want more mommy. They want me to cuddle, read, play…and they probably won’t miss the creative treats and crafts – maybe my readers will – maybe the girls will – but I don’t care anymore!

I finally have the courage to say – this sucks!

I just want to enjoy the rest of this summer! Hell, I want to enjoy the rest of my life home with the girls who won’t be little for long! And I probably won’t be home forever so…..good bye Susie homemaker!

Being this blogger, baker, crafter, and especially this summer, has made me feel like I have four jobs.

Taking care of the kids, being a pre school teacher, running a bakery, and a cleaning woman ( yes, I know that is already part of my job but all of the glitter, spilled beads and gems, glue, flour, frosting, batter, crumbs, etc….has multiplied my every day chores times ten!)

I quit. Good bye themes.

BUT Let me show you the pics from fancy week, they’re quite fancy.

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Fancy cookies

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Decorating everything…

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And this….

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Don’t even ask!!!!

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