Well, here it is. The first day of the new year… A fresh start, a blank slate, and boy am I excited! I changed the name of my blog today … It used to be laundry love … Um yea , what the heck was I thinking! I abhor laundry- it’s the most mind numbing task that NEVER ENDS….EVER! It’s like a battle where I always lose or end up flat out frustrated! I manage to put the clothes in, maybe remember to put them in the dryer…but when it comes to the actual folding ugh, it takes days to get this done…mostly because the girls keep throwing themselves in the pile of clothes…. And then when the miracle of actually folding the laundry occurs, the piles sit there forever. I mean the entire task of putting all those little pink and purple tiny socks in pairs used all the “boring chore” reserves of my brain and I couldn’t even fathom the idea of going from room to room opening up drawer after drawer and putting away those freshly laundered items!
So there you have it. I don’t like laundry and sometime I don’t love being a stay at home Mom but I love my girls more than anything and I am going to embrace this time with them…even though my four year old cried passionately this evening about how she didn’t want to eat the meatball for dinner ! And the fact that I picked up toys off the ground all day long only to walk to a different room to see that my two year old decided to decorate the walls with stickers and crayons… Yea this is my fabulous life but I will continue to make it my mission to raise confident, happy, smart, and strong girls.
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Sometimes I want to scream
This has been the absolute longest day! I haven’t left the house in two days and home with my two year old and four year old girls… I want to be honest here…I started a blog two days ago with the intention of writing about fabulous things but I have been on edge since I started this grandiose and ridiculous idea…
I think I just need to come to grips with the fact that I am an anxious, ruminating, stir crazy momma who struggles with non stop snacking when I am loosing it!
One half hour ago I was shoving cookies in my mouth because I am stuffing feelings perhaps… oh I’ve read all the books about emotional eating and apparently I’m self medicating! Yes, friends I am eating cookies because I thought that I could fly through these days being creative, fun, and stimulating to my children’s minds BUT!!! I got to about noon today and my mood just plummeted- these days are long and I just feel empty except for the millions of snacks I consumed today! ugh –
Quick background on me – I am 37, former teacher among other various professions – I worked with my first daughter and stayed home when I had the second so I’ve been home about two years now and let me tell you – it is tough!
I love my girls and they are so beautiful but I get so bored at home. I do play dates, baking, crafts, dance, gymnastics, story time, mall trips, icecream trips- you know the drill stay at home moms! I try to keep busy but sometimes I just want to scream!
the boredom, the monotonous day to day , the impossible shopping trips, the tantrums, the food issues…I feel so trapped sometimes.
Slowing Down
It’s the Monday after Christmas and I had absolutely nothing planned to do with the kids for today. This is uncomfortable for me. I find myself staring out the window, then glancing over at the girls, thinking to myself ,”what on Earth are we going to do? How am I going to get through this day? How am I going to straighten up, clean, and play with them in a fun and meaningful way? Why did I throw out all of my organized cards… What was I thinking trying to be this go with the flow, creative Mom. I AM NOT CREATIVE!! I feel boring and depleted! Darn – how am I going to write a really cool blog about being so new and changed and go with the flow. I’m already at a loss on day two!
Somehow the day got moving and I suggested that we decorate bags – just plain shopping bags with stickers and crayons and such.
Typically I try and get chores done while the girls are occupied but I just sat down with them and it was fun. I actually relaxed and felt a little bit creative for thinking of this. I am certainly not a pinterest, crafty diva- I’m just trying to enjoy this stay at home experience a little more.
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