Less social media and more focus on family

Cabinets left open, laundry half done, paperwork started and left unfinished… that’s me these days. Actually this has been occurring for the past eight years to be exact. Eight being the age of my oldest child, so I’m thinking this is purely a scattered mom thing.

Last night I scrolled through old posts and I wanted to pull the blanket over my head and hide! They were so scattered! My brain is a cluttered mess! I think it may have something to do with having children, but it’s also a Jill thing! I have so many ideas and thoughts occurring at once that I often forget what I started!

In fact, today, I was watching my daughters softball game, having a conversation with a friend… and she’s like, “Jill! You just shared ten thoughts in that sentence!”

I didn’t even realize it’s gotten so bad!

Thankfully, I only forgot my daughter once!

That was a definite mom fail. I was leaving the school playground lost in thought, thinking about all the stuff I had to do, almost to my car, when I realized I didn’t have her with me! This is the third child I am talking about by the way…if that makes it any more palatable… you know what they say about the third kid!

In the past month, I changed my kids YouTube Channel’s name so many times, the site stopped letting me change it! I started three new blogs and then deleted them! I start projects, ideas, and plans but get so overwhelmed with all of the thoughts that I don’t get anywhere!

I wish someone could be in charge of my brain waves and direct all the content and information on a steady path! Obviously that’s never going to happen! For now it’s just me trying to keep things focused and simple.

I owe it to my kids and husband to be present and focused. If I’m bogged down with so many ideas and thoughts I can’t be of much use!

One of my goals is less social media reading because the hours of your life you just piss away reading about other people is a real life snatcher! I know this is a bit of a hypocritical statement being that this a blog but I said less, not quitting!

I think all of us know, deep inside, what really matters… and it’s not on the phone, Ipad, or latest obsession one might be into!

More bonding, less iPad, less media, less whatever it is taking you away from your kids

If I was a self help book I’d throw myself over a cliff

“Moving towards balance…letting go, quitting sweets, quitting baking, getting over people pleasing, going to start taking care of myself, exercising, accepting my body, slowing down…blah, blah, blah….I truly feel like if I was a self help book, I would throw myself over the cliff.

None of this crappolla is important, really. Its utter crap, it’s not positive, funny, or real.

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It’s like I am addicted to proclamations. It’s probably America – we’re obsessed with life change, makeovers, transformations, and success stories…pick up any magazine and it always features happy people touting their latest life change or decision to live a different life…I’m not completely knocking these inspirational type of stories…it’s just the more we hear about Jane quitting her job, starting the business of her dreams, losing 20 pounds, giving up gluten, and practicing yoga…you start to kind of think – well, maybe Jane has all the answers. She just looks so freakin happy…

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This sort of thing has always sucked me in… Any kind of a change, seemed dramatic, exciting, challenging, and the answer to me being stuck in a rut.

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The title says secrets to being happy from the Inside out…that sounds like you just have to read it, right?

When something doesn’t feel right, or I am feeling something I don’t want to be feeling, like frustration, unhappiness, disillusionment, sadness, or just boredom, I make some major proclamation. Instead of just owning the feeling. I think that’s what addicts do, right?

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This one promises me to get a life that doesn’t suck! Woo hoo

For example, the baking… I baked a lot for the past two years. And then, just recently, I simply didn’t feel like it. I didn’t really have a clear explanation. I just had no desire to get out the bowls and the flour. When I think about this rationally, it was probably just me being tired and busy with the regular hectic life of a mom of little ones.

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Not a lick of make up- dirty hair- and chipped nail polish – that’s pretty brave of me to show this gross pic that Gia snapped of me.

How about I just write/ speak about my true feelings… Like “Hey everyone, I am in a funk. I’m tired, I’m probably going to bring you some munchkins today, because the thought of baking is truly exhausting… But maybe I’ll feel like whipping up some blondies in a couple of weeks, or maybe not! ”

Or ” I am just not feeling my cutest, can we just hang out in our sweats and drink wine and eat pizza? ”

I officially quit proclamations.

Life is full of enough interesting things to read about/talk about right? Like the fact that Arianna pooped on the bathroom floor at the library yesterday and tried to pick it up.

Eeewwww! I don’t know how this happened. She has been using the potty regularly now for a while.

But that’s life. And I think we would all rather read about that, wouldn’t we?


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Beginning the journey to find balance

I’ve been feeling kind of lost. Not knowing what direction to take this blog. I know it’s just a blog, something I started because I thought it would help me be a better mom, person, keeper of the house…like if I was putting it out there for the world to see, it would somehow inspire me to “do more.”

The problem is that it did inspire me to do more. I tried cute crafts, tons of baking, and various ideas and it was nice and it looks like I do a lot. I worked hard with this blog. People tell me they like reading my posts.

I suppose I’ve sharpened my writing skills a bit, and I learned how to do things on the computer, and I’ve certainly toughened up my skin by just putting it all out there and not caring what people think, BUT as of today, I am still suffering with …

I’m not quite sure how to put it – just a feeling that I’m not living peacefully, not balanced, and doing what really matters.

Today, I decide to find more peace and put my needs and my family’s needs above all else.

I thought I was just baking too much but I think it’s way deeper than that. I feel as if I’ve been busying myself with “lots of stuff,” joining Pinterest, participating in many kid’s activities, doing the theme stuff, etc…but it seems like it’s just been stuff…fluff.

I plan on exercising for me, baking quality over quantity, doing less activities, slowing down, saying no, not planning as much, and the MOST IMPORTANT THING, tuning out the world and playing with my girls. We will still do crafts, I have girls – they love crafts – but they won’t be just for a cute post.

I will be having a new blogger soon to join this blog and she strives for balance every day. I can’t wait for her to begin.

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